Well, I had my egg retrieval surgery over a week ago only getting 2 eggs, one of which ended up being mature. The next day they were fertilizing the egg – aka adding the sperm. I was awaiting the call to tell me all was well and we had a little embryo that would be ready in a few days to be put inside my willing and waiting womb, but that didn’t happen. I got a call alright, a call from the Doctor. A voice that you hear only when there is bad news – no embryo. Yes, you read that correctly – no embryo. After days of taking burning shots, multiple pills, lots of vitamins, and doing acupuncture for months – nothing. Nada. Zero. It didn’t work.
Our second round of IVF and still nothing. I’ve cried and cried. I was angry and confused, but sometimes life is tough and I know something truely amazing is in store for us. Scott will be a father. I will be a mother. The time is just not now. This might not be the way. No we don’t know what’s next. Yes, I know there are people who get pregnant naturally after they’ve tried IVF blah blah blah. I’ve heard all the cliches. I get it. Still doesn’t make the moment feel better.
Thank you all who’ve prayed for us and thought about us and this journey. Your kind words and support are worth more than you know.
Our infertility journey continues…
Good news is we just visited MD Anderson Cancer Center for Scott’s 2 year check up and….. his PET scan is clear! The residual mass is still shrinking! Can I get a witness?! Praise the Lord! I’m not gonna lie – I told the Lord while Scott was going through chemo that I didn’t need children as long as I get to keep him – He obviously took me seriously – I can’t be mad, because I was serious. I get to have the best husband around (cancer free) and I do have children – my 2 beautiful doggies. I’m the lucky one.